I have met him already. My better half. My special someone. My significant other. I never thought I will find him in this lifetime. But I did. And I can never ask for more. He is all that I have ever wanted and all that I have ever dreamed of. He completes me.

His name is Rodolfo Enriquez, Jr. We have been together for almost two months now, and I have never been this happy. All of a sudden, all the heartaches of the past are now a distant memory. In meeting him, I have realized that love, actually, is possible no matter what circumstances you might have encountered. Every moment, every experience, every time spent with him is simply bliss.

I'm thinking of you right now
I'm thinking about how your eyes twinkle with delight
How your smile lights up the room
How soothing your voice is
I'm thinking about how perfect it feels to hold your hands in mine
And hug you real tight
I can't seem to have enough of you
And I'm longing for more
Every bit of you complements me
And every moment with you is something to be
Treasured and cherished
I love you, Rudy
I really do.

Cheesy, but that is definitely how I feel whenever I think of him.
  

The Siamese Cat's Style Quick Fix, one of my earliest posts here, has been published in Fabuloush.com. Isn't that fab?

Just the other day, I was telling my friends about this guy I used to date who's now kinakarir another friend of mine. Although I already knew about it before hand, my friend talked to me and told me about it. I told him I really don't have any problem with that. However, I told him that I don't like the idea that the guy I used to date would want to date anyone of my friends. I explained to him that it's not because I still like the guy or whatever, it's just that ang asiwa naman kung isang guy parang umiikot lang sa isang barkada. Kasi if that's me, I wouldn't date or hook up with a guy who I know na dinate na ng friend ko. Sabi ko nga, "Ang liit na nga ng mundo natin, lalo pang liliit sa mga ganyang eksena..."

Now here's the worst part... The following day, I learned that the ex-boyfriend of one of my closest friends is now going steady with one of our friends. At eto pa, naging sila right after my friend broke up with his ex! Major breaking of the code of friendship. Me and my friends were talking about what happened and we were all in agreement that it's disgusting and pathetic. Don't you think?

After almost a year of wearing glasses, I have now decided to wear contacts. Yes, I have finally got rid (almost) of my pesky glasses and I can now start wearing shades again. Haha! But darn, it's so hard to take them off and put them back on. The first night, it took me 30 mins just to take my contacts off. But they say sa umpisa lang naman yun. Oh well...

It's all over now. Like what I have said, sooner or later I know that it was bound to get messy... it was bound to get more complicated... it was bound to end. And it all did - big time! I guess there's no point to elaborate on what exactly happened. Probably all I can say now is that there has been a lot of lies told to too many people, yours truly included. Lies that manipulated the people involved, lies that hurt, lies that ruined the best of us. We have been all victims here, even High Point. And if there is someone that I pity the most, it is him because he lost everything that he ever had.

This is all so tragic. I hope we all learned from this.

Kabit. Kerida. Kalayugo. Number 2. Third party. Mistress. What else?

I guess you can call me all those names now. I've taken a huge step forward regarding my situation with High Point. Needless to say, I'm now playing the game. Dangerous. Risky. Even stupid. I know. But I'm facing it all with a full face and a brave heart. I like the guy and I can say that there is already an emotional attachment involved. I am fully aware of the consequences of my actions... I know at some point it is bound to get messy. I know that sooner or later it will all end. But for now, I am taking everything one step at a time. I am living it by the moment. And I am going to cherish whatever there is that I can cherish. I'll worry about the consequences. Let me live in the now...

Believe me it is not easy, not at all. At first, my friends were all against it. They like High Point, but they're not buying the situation we're are in. They've been asking why am I settling for less? Why am I doing this to myself? I know they were all right and I really couldn't argue with them. But what can I do? I act on instinct. And my instinct is telling me to follow what my heart desires.

High Point joined us late Saturday evening. After we all went back to our hotel room from clubbing at Government, High Point got the chance to talk to my friends about our situation. I didn't join them because I really didn't want to hear everything that he wants to tell them. After that 'talk', however, my friends told me that they are now supporting whatever High Point and I have; that they now like High Point for me. That in itself is enough for me.

Being the secret lover that I am, I have to set limits to myself. I have to know exactly where I stand. I have to know exactly how I should act. It is not easy. But this is something that I chose, so I have to be strong in my resolve. Just like what I have told my friends, I have always been a risk-taker, and I guess I will always be, and this thing with High Point is one of the biggest risk that I chose to take.

I turned a year older once again, and hopefully have grown wiser as well. It was my birthday last Saturday, and I could say that it was one of my most memorable birthdays so far. Me and my friends (Sly, Row, Dickie, Marco, and Marvin) checked ourselves in in a hotel along Makati Avenue for a supposedly QAF viewing session, but then it ended up as a night out instead. I had a blast! I'll post some pics later...